Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
When I woke up in the early afternoon,I had a bowl of cereal and also got an unexpected phone call from a Christian counselor who I have confided in for a while.We talked for about 10 minutes and hung-up.I then began to do my personal PC work,which I finished in about an hour.
After that,I went out to run an errand for my mom.I went to a nearby supermarket to pick up a few more things for her.While there,I ran into an old friend that I hadn't seen in 13 years.He was with his mother shopping and we talked for quite a while.He was here for a visit and he wanted to know how I was doing.We talked for a while before he went back to his mother and I headed for the checkout to pay for the groceries.
After coming home,I brought the groceries in the house and bathed for a while.I had to clean myself up because I am going out tonight to sing for my friends and I wanted to make sure that I was clean and neat for that tonight.After my bath,I ate a light dinner.
After eating,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site and I did some more last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tonight,as stated,I am going to be singing for my friends and I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Last week,my night of entertaining the crowd went great and I was warmly welcomed back into the place by an appreciative crowd.It was awesome.I am hoping for another awesome night and I am looking forward to singing again.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation and I masturbated.I did it last night while sitting in a chair.I felt so miserable after that and I asked the creator to forgive me.It was over images of nude men with erect penises.I just can't shake them loose.I want to shake them loose because I am getting sick and tired of masturbating to these images and also the way they keep clouding my mind.I am still feeling hopeful that I can.I just need the right level of support.I am not going to act out.I know that masturbation is considered acting out.But I don't want to act out with another man because the sexual activity associated with the Homosexual condition is wrong and inappropriate.The condition itself isn't sinful.It is just the activity that is sinful.I need to get some support and I also need to start to take an active role in seeking and nurturing healthy relationships with other men.I am hoping that I can start doing that soon.I am getting sick and tired of the emotional rut that I am in.If anyone out there has any ideas,I would like to know what they are.Thanks in advance.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend ahead.FJ