Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.Despite a minor mess that I had to clean up doing the pick-up,the day went well.There was nothing really to gripe about.After my job was done,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.
On the way home,I went to the bank to cash my paycheck and to withdraw some money for my mom.After that,I went to do some more grocery shopping.It was to pick up a few more things that were needed.I headed straight home after that.
I dropped off the groceries at home and I also headed back out to drop some money off at my mechanic's garage.He was glad to have gotten the money.It was quite a lot.He thanked me for it and I headed back home.
When I got home,I had a hearty dinner and it was filling.After that,I decided to go and register some bills at the Where's George site.They are now all on there and I am glad that they are.I even had to write some of them on paper so I could register them later.I also did some last minute personal PC work.I still have a little bit more to do before I shut down for the night.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am actually even happier that I am now singing again.I actually missed entertaining my friends every Saturday night.I am glad to have been there last week and I am looking forward to tomorrow night.Again,I am glad to be doing this again.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being plagued by images of nude men with erect penises.I almost manipulated my sexuality today as a result.But I managed to stop myself.But there is still the images.I am still feeling hopeful that I can overcome this.I know that I have to make some changes.I have stopped acting out on my desires and I am still working on avoiding pornography,especially Gay pornography.But I know that I do have to do a lot more.I still have to work on finding and forming healthy relationships with other males.I have given my phone number to practically every guy that I know to call me to talk but I have yet to hear from them.I guess that I have to try other areas.If anyone has any ideas and/or advice,please share.Thanks.
I am also still feeling the temptation of going to a pornography site and watching porn.But again,I am going to visit YouTube and watch a few more music videos and/or cartoons.I am hoping that the temptation dies down.
As stated,the weekend begins tomorrow and I am looking forward to tomorrow night.As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ