Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to prepare to do what I had to do for the rest of the day.
After getting dressed,I started writing out some more Christmas cards for the people that I knew around the town and a few out of town.After they were done,I put stamps on them and I mailed them out when I went out.After that,I had a few more things that I needed to do.
I had to pick up some clothes of mine from the same place where I do my laundry as a result that it is also a dry cleaning and professional cleaning place.After doing that,I headed over to a couple of other stores to pick up things that my mom wanted me to pick up.After doing that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have with it.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out.But at the moment,my temptation is minimal at best.Ever since I started writing my fantasies down as short stories and then closing off the word program without saving them for future reference,my temptation to act out has been reduced.For a while,my temptation to act out was really strong,but now,it has been reduced.I even wrote out another fantasy yesterday and afterwards,read from my copy of the Holy Bible.I am now trying to keep my thoughts spiritual and hopefully,this will continue to work for me.I also have to continue to keep in mind that pornography is garbage and that in itself,which is also a form of acting out,will also never give me what I want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go along with it.Still,I am looking for any advice oh how I can continue to resist temptation whenever the temptation to act out comes around.If anyone can give any ideas,suggestions or advice as to how I can resist the temptation to act out,please feel free to share.I would really appreciate anything.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I need to attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ