Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did only half of my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed up to go to the morning's church service.I was looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm.
The service was very wonderful and after the service,I had quite a bit of wonderful fellowship with the others and even had the chance to talk with people that I hadn't spoken with before.After all of this,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I had myself a quick lunch of a bowl of soup with a sandwich and after eating lunch,I finished my personal PC work.After finishing,I decided to get my laundry together to go to the laundromat and get my laundry done.
On the way to the laundromat,I stopped at the local Big Lots to check out a few things.After that,I headed over to two more stores to pick up a couple of things that my mom wanted me to get.After picking those up,I headed straight to the laundromat.
When I got there,I managed to find a machine that wasn't being used and I started to do my laundry immediately.I waited for over half an hour for it to get done and after it was,I put them in the dryer to dry them.
After yet another half an hour,I took my clothes out of the dryer and folded them all.After bagging them,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had no place else to go nor anything else to do.
When I got home,I put all my laundry away and I relaxed for a while and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and also,the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside that.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to act out on these desires is minimal.Ever since that I started typing up short stories of fantasies that I have had in the past that have continued to overwhelm me negatively making the healing process difficult at the same time,I have been feeling better.It is simply a process of getting it out of your system and after that,forgetting it.I have been using an office starter program to do that and after I am finished writing it,I close off the program and I don't save the stories for printing or onto disc.After writing them,I close off the program and then forget them.Getting these fantasies out in this way has been really relieving and I am now feeling less temptation to act out.I haven't been manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting hard or near hard for masturbation nor have any images of nude men have come to cloud out my mind.I am feeling better.I am hoping that one day,I will be all fantasied out and I won't have to write anymore short stories about any of them.I know that I will still get the temptation to act out each and every day and I must work through the temptations one day at a time at best.But since this has been minimal,I can now relax and not worry.I even wrote a short story last night and it was the most sick,twisted and perverted fantasy story that I have written so far.I am feeling better now and that is good.Still,if anyone else can help with any more suggestions or advice,that would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I will be attending groups that I must attend and after that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ