Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I dried up and I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.I also read a daily devotion sent to me through the church's radio ministry website and also,the scriptures from the Holy Bible they recommended that I read.
After that,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much to do today.It was still cold and even thought it wasn't snowing like yesterday,I only ran one errand.I simply went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things that were needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day as I had nothing else planned for the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that are accompanying it.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue on my positive road to recovery and improving in it in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,temptation is still with me.Each and every day,I am always tempted to act out on my desires.But today,the temptation to act out isn't as strong as it was yesterday.The craving to indulge in any fantasy styled stuff themed to the so called Homosexual/Gay culture was very overwhelming yesterday.Since I do have a word starter program on my computer,I decided to use it to put the fantasy to a story.Last night,I spent much of the evening typing up the fantasy story and it really took a long time to finish.It was a really long one.It included everything from the culture in the story and after I finished typing it,I simply closed off the word starter program and I didn't save the story at all.After it was closed,it was now out of my system and immediately forgotten.I read some scriptures from the Holy Bible afterwards and the temptation to act out was practically nil at best.Today,my temptation to act out is very slim and not as strong as it was yesterday.Regarding the fantasy story that I wrote and didn't save,I looked at it the same way as when someone writes an imaginary letter to forgive someone that hurt them before,but after it was written,it was crumpled up,ripped or burned so it was all forgotten.With the word starter program,I simply closed off the program after writing the story and rather than save it for printing or to a disc,I simply closed the program and didn't save it for anything.It's almost the same thing.I felt better afterwards and today,the temptation to act out is only minimal at best.I guess that I will have to do that again in the near future whenever the temptation to indulge in fantasy themed to the so called Homosexual/Gay culture gets really strong.Still,I am always open to new suggestions,ideas and advice on how I can continue to resist the temptation to act out on my desires.Thanks in advance to anyone who wants to help.
Tomorrow,I am planning to attend the morning's church service.In the afternoon,I am hoping to get around to doing my laundry.I will probably simply relax for the rest of the day onward.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ