Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and got dressed.I had quite a bit on my agenda today and I wanted to get everything done.
Firstly,I paid my DirecTV bill over the phone.After that,I headed over to the post office to buy money orders and to mail out the bill payments.After that was done,I headed over to my insurance agent to pay my car insurance.After that was done,I headed over to the local Sears to pay my credit card bill.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside it.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on a daily basis.Last night,I did masturbate to images of naked men flooding my mind.I did feel miserable as a result of that and the misery stuck with me for much of the day.I really don't want to masturbate and I really don't want these images of naked men flooding my mind anymore.I want to let them fade into a memory that I want to forget.I don't want to have these images flood my mind anymore and I no longer want to masturbate.I want to do the right thing by not acting out with another man and also,not to masturbate to these images nor even masturbating to pornography.I want to stop this stuff and again,if anyone has any ideas or advice on how I can do so,please share.Any advice or suggestions is always appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ