Tonight,my road to recovery continues on a positive road.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a couple of groups that I needed to attend.The first was a recovery group where we all sit and talk about our goals and plans for recovery and after that,I had a work skills group that I also needed to attend,in which we talk about learning new skills,improving current skills and also,how to get along with others in the work place.
The groups both went well.I did get a lot out of them.After the groups,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to pay a bill and to withdraw some money for myself.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of Bipolar Depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on my desires.This morning,I was also tempted to do so.I had the temptation to again manipulate my genitals to get them hard or near hard and to masturbate once that happened.But I managed to stop myself from that.There was also some fantasy involved as well.I do have to say that we men who struggle with SSA really have it tough.We are always tempted to act out on our unnatural desires and though we know that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is sinful and wrong,we are always in the middle of it all.We are tempted to act out but we also want to do the right thing by resisting the temptation.That is where we are stuck in the middle.By comparison,it is easier to give into the temptation than it is to resist.Resistance is very difficult and we always have to put up with the fact that when we choose to resist,the temptation to act out gets stronger.The best thing is that we all have a choice in this matter.We can choose to act out or we can choose not to act out.But fellow readers,I am still looking for helpful advice.If anyone out there can help me with any advice or suggestions,please do so.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have only thing on my agenda.I have to drop off something at the local city hall and after that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ