Tonight,my road to recovery continues to be positive.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I just wanted to get to that and be done with it.
The group went better than expected.After the group was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I had to make a couple of stops.I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed and after that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick a couple boxes of Christmas cards.After that,I headed over to the nearby local supermarket within the plaza to pick up yet one more thing.After paying for that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I put everything away and after that,I had myself a quick lunch before taking it easy for the rest of the day.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with bipolar depression and it's accompanying symptoms alongside the schizophrenic tendencies that I have with this.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on my desires.I know that I do have a choice whether to act out or not.I have chosen to not act out as it is the right thing to do in the eyes of God through his son Jesus Christ.The only problem is that my desires want me to do what is wrong,which is to indulge in sexual activity with members of my own gender.I am not going to do that,even though it isn't easy to make that choice or endure while the desires are at their strongest.Though I did give in 2 nights ago,I didn't give in last night,though the temptation is still strong.I do have the urge to try and manipulate my genitals into hardness or near hardness,but right now,I have chosen not to do that,though it isn't easy putting up with all of that.Still,I am looking for some help and encouragement.If anyone can give me any advice in how I can resist any temptation to act out,I would like any advice or suggestions as they are always welcomed.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ