Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda today.After eating lunch,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that were needed for dinner.After paying for those items,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up another thing.After paying for that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some much needed money that my mom wanted me to withdraw for her.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I unpacked all the groceries and put them in their proper places.I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside it.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to act out is just as strong as it has been.I am still being tempted to act out on my desires on a day to day basis.I haven't sought any male partners to act out with,but I am still having visions of naked men cloud my mind and I am still manipulating my genitals to attain hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbating to those images.The images still continue to cloud my mind.The thing is that I don't want to act out,but my desires want me to.I want to do the right thing that God expects me to do,but my desires want me to do wrong in God's eyes.The temptation is really strong and I don't want to give in.Again,as I have asked before,if anyone can help me out with any helpful advice on how I can gain strength to resist the temptation to act out,please share.I would greatly appreciate that.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ