Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good and eventful,though a little stressful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though it was later than usual,and bathed.After my bath,I got dressed as I couldn't eat early this morning as I had to go to the local hospital for some blood work and other medical tests.
When I arrived at the hospital,I took a number and I sat down,but was called immediately.After signing in,I went to another office to make a couple of necessary appointments to get a cat scan done on my head to check out my brain to see what could be causing headaches that I get when least expected.I also have to have a EKG done to test out my heart rhythm and all.The appointments will be tomorrow and after that,I headed over to the waiting room to get the blood work and other tests done.
It only took a few minutes,but once it was all completed,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got ready to go to my Monday afternoon groups.
The group meetings went well.I did get a lot out of them.After the meetings were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the public library to do some printing and after that was done,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple o things that were needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the say.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful,though a little stressful,day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery continues onward in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I really didn't have any temptations,nor cravings or urges,to act out.My temptation to act out today was minimal if nil at best.I really didn't have any temptation to do anything related to Homosexuality.I had no urge to masturbate nor urge to manipulate my genitals to get them hard or near hard for the purpose of masturbation.Though I had none of that today,I still need to keep on guard and be watchful as temptation can rear it's ugly little head at me when least expected.I am not waiting for it.I am just saying that it will happen and I have to be on guard and be watchful.I know that we all get tempted,but when the temptation happens,I have to fight that and stay clean.I also still have to keep in mind that masturbation will never get me what I want either.I also have to keep in mind that pornography will also never give me what I want.I just have to stay on guard and be watchful as temptation can hit when least expected.
Tomorrow,I have the aforementioned appointments at the local hospital tomorrow.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ