Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good,but a little bit stressful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed as usual.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a big day planned and though I really wasn't looking forward to the events of the day,I still had to do these all for my own personal health.
I had two appointments today.There were both very important medical ones.As a result of that,I couldn't have anything to eat for lunch for four hours as I was preparing for my cat scan of my head to see what could be causing the headaches that I get on occasion.I also had an EKG planned a half an hour before the cat scan.Fortunately,they were both in the same building as I really didn't have to go very far to get them both done.I simply arrived at the area of the local hospital where I had to get them done ten minutes early and I waited.
Both the EKG and cat scan went smoothly.Since I requested that I get the info about it via regular postal mail,they said that I should receive the results in a few weeks.I headed for home the minute that both were done.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby fast food restaurant to get a small burger and a small fries to eat to tie me over until dinner.This was my late lunch as I was very hungry due to the four hour fasting that I had to do to get the cat scan on my head done.After eating that quick lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.I also watched a few classic TV show reruns on TV.Overall,a pretty good,though a little stressful,day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving again in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had only a minor urge to act out this morning.I was still tired after finally getting up.I had an urge to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them hard or near hard for masturbatory purposes and though I succeeded in getting my genitals hard,I had to stop when I was almost on the verge of a climax.As stated,I was still feeling tired after finally getting up and that is what caused to urge.Though minor,it was still an urge.But I managed to stop myself from doing that,though I was tired.I simply took my bath and after that,my temptation and urge to act out was minimal if nil at best.I guess that I have so much energy in me and I know that I need to use that energy for constructive purposes rather than destructive.I also need to learn how to use the energy constructively.I am going to do an online search to see if I can find any articles on how to use my energy constructively.I am hoping that I will succeed in finding some articles.If I do,I will print them when I get the chance and read them during my spare time.I need to learn how to use my energy constructively and how I can also use it to benefit myself and others in a positive and constructive sense.I know that it will be a while,but something tells me that I can find them and I won't stop until I do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ