Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things that I needed to do.I first went to see the therapist at the local hospital to talk with her about some things that I couldn't talk about in the group that I attended during the first Monday of this month.I was looking forward to this session as I hadn't had a talk with a therapist in quite a while since the last talk I had with my last therapist.
The session went well.I talked with her for almost half an hour and after the session was over,I left the hospital and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to mail out a couple of important letters that my mom wanted me to mail out.After that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up my mom's prescription.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted again early this morning.I had yet another enormous erection and it woke me up out of a deep sleep.The erection was also one of those throbbing ones and it throbbed like it might have exploded at any minute.I simply did what I had to do to fight the temptation to masturbate it away.I tossed and I turned until the erection died down.After my penis softened,I went back to sleep for another few hours.I know that it isn't a sin to be tempted,but it is a sin to give into that temptation.The only good thing was that for the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I did escape one temptation that was early this morning,but I know that there will be more in the near and distant future.Not that I am waiting for them to happen,I am just trying to be on guard and be watchful as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Still,I know that temptation in itself isn't sinful as each and every one of us does get tempted.But I have to keep in mind that giving into temptation,especially when it is giving into sinful sexual activity,is sinful.It is a sin to act out on sexual activity that is sinful.I have to continually keep all of that in mind and I know that I will be okay.I just have to stay strong and ask for strength when I need it.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ