Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had a lot planned for the day.
I had a couple of groups on my agenda today.They were both in the early afternoon.But before I went to those,I had lunch at a local community kitchen and after eating that,I headed over to the location where the groups were so I could attend them and get what I needed out of them.
The groups both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and myself.After that,I headed over to the local Sears to pick up some things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money at the Where's George site and after that,I went back out to get some dinner from the local McDonalds.
After eating when I got home,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a double whammy in the wee early morning hours.I actually,for the first time in a long time,wound up with two morning erections.The first happened around 4:30am while the second happened around 6:15am.My temptation to masturbate these away was very overwhelming and strong.For the first one,I tossed and turned until my penis softened while with the second one,I simply got up as I had to use the bathroom anyway.While walking to the bathroom,my penis softened.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was mild,but still strong.I resisted the temptation to act out all day focusing on good things and thinking about all the ways that God helped set me free from the trap of Homosexuality.I stayed focused on that for the rest of the day and the temptation to act out slowly weakened.But again,I still need to keep on guard whenever temptation rears it's ugly head.It can when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful.Temptation can come when least expected.When it does,I have to fight it.I know that being tempted,in itself,is not sinful.But giving in to the temptation is sinful.Again,I need to continue to stay on guard and be watchful and keep fighting temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head.
Tomorrow,I have to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ