Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I first attended my spirituality group and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I headed there with a positive outlook.
The group meeting was wonderful.After the group was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen and had lunch.After lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery improves and that I start feeling better soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.I wanted to take my genitals in my hand and masturbate it away.But instead,I fought it by constantly tossing and turning until my penis softened.I fell back asleep once it was soft.Though I escaped this,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to keep fighting the temptation to act out by masturbating or any other way without seeking a male partner to act out with.I no longer want anything sexual with a man nor do I want to pursue anything of that sort at all.I want to steer clear away from anything like that.Still,I would like some words of encouragement and advice to resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.
Tomorrow,I have a meeting with the pastor of the church.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ