Tonight,my road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a mandatory meeting that I had to attend.It was a meeting with a group over at the local hospital.I had to attend the group to ensure that I would get my prescription for my psychiatric medication when I have to see the nurse practitioner over at the hospital later this month.
Since I had some time to kill before the meeting,I decided to stop at a local pizzeria to have a couple slices of pizza for lunch.After I was done eating,I headed over to the hospital and waited in the waiting room until we were called into the meeting room where the group was going to meet.
The meeting went great.It lasted for a little over an hour.After the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops along the way.I first stopped at a couple of friends houses to see how they were both doing.After visiting with them both,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up some things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sorted out the groceries and put them in their proper places.After that was done,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out by masturbating twice in the wee early morning hours.I was awakened at a couple of separate intervals of the wee early morning hours by erections.They both were also throbbing ones.The first happened at 4:35am in the morning and the next one happened a little over an hour later.I really had to fight temptation here as the temptation to masturbate them away was very overwhelming.I had to really aggressively toss and turn repeatedly to resist the temptation to masturbate these away.In the past,masturbation was what I did to get rid of the erections,but now that my priorities have changed,I have to fight to resist.I escaped as both the erections died down and I was able to sleep for a while after both these intervals.Though I escaped,I still have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in a fight to continually resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than seeking a male partner to act out with.I have to keep up my strength and continue to fight the desires to act out by masturbating or in any other way other than finding another man to have sexual activity with.I just have to stay strong,hang in there and fight the temptations when they rear their ugly heads at me.Again,I am still open to anything that might have helped those who follow this blog.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow,I am going to get around to doing my laundry.After that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ