Tonight,my road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things that I needed to do.After registering some bills at the Where's George site,I headed over to the post office to mail out some important bills that needed to be mailed out.I also had some stuff that I needed to mail out as well.After doing all of that,I headed over to the local Sears to pay my credit card bill for the month.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up several things that I needed.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am still hoping that my recovery will start improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out by masturbating in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection that was also another throbbing one.I had to really fight this temptation.I again repeatedly tossed and turned until the erection died down and I fell back asleep.Though I escaped this episode,I know that the temptation to act out in other ways can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continue keeping in mind that acting out in any way,shape or form will never give me what I want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.Acting out,whether it is by masturbating or other ways,will only reinforce the Homosexual identity that I am trying to overcome and flee from and also,to be free from.I just have to keep fighting.Again,if anyone has any ideas or suggestions,feel free to share them.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.As far as the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ