Tonight,my road to recovery continues on,though still a little rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have to much to do today.I simply went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that were needed for the home and after I paid for them,I simply headed back home.
When I got back home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
On my road to recovery,I am learning that it is never easy to deal with the symptoms of bipolar depression.I never know if I am going to be up one day or down the next.It is simply an emotional roller coaster ride where anyone who struggles with this doesn't know what the days affects are going to be.Aside from dealing with bipolar depression,I also have to deal with schizophrenic tendencies as well.With these tendencies,I hear things that other people can't hear,which includes sounds,voices or anything else connected with hearing things that nobody else hears.It is a rough road and a very difficult experience dealing with one mental illness and also,to deal with tendencies from another disorder and all.It is extremely difficult.The only things that I can continue to do is to continue my therapy sessions and continue to take my medication as directed.I just hope that my recovery will start improving soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by a morning erection.This also was another throbbing one and I really had to fight to resist this temptation.It wasn't easy,but I managed to get through this episode when the erection died down.Though I escaped this episode,I know that the temptation to act out in other ways,other than seeking a male partner out to act out with,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I just have to keep fighting these urges whenever they come up,though the fight is always a difficult one.I will just have to keep up the fight to resist this temptation every time that it comes around.Though I did get a suggestion from another follower and it is a good one and i am trying to put it into practice,I am still open to any other suggestions from others as to what worked for them.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a Men's Network meeting that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ