Tonight,my road to recovery continues to press on,though it is still a rocky road.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wok up in the early morning and bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed to proceed with the rest of the morning as I had an important meeting that I needed to attend,which was my monthly Men's Network meeting.
The meeting was a wonderful one indeed.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a Salvation Army thrift store in the area and I managed to find some great stuff.After I was done shopping there,I headed over to a library in the area and registered some dollar bills at the Where's George site and after I was done with much of my PC work,I headed back into my hometown and headed over to the local Salvation Army thrift store in my hometown to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those items.I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put everything away and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and watched a couple of movies in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some reading from the Holy Bible and also,a study book that is connected with the church that I worship in.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
In my recovery,I am still having to deal with the symptoms of bipolar depression and it is very difficult to deal with them.One minute I can be up while the next minute I can be down.It is a constant emotional roller coaster ride.Aside from the bipolar depression symptoms,I am also struggling with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the bipolar depression.It is never an easy road to be on.It is always going to be a very difficult one indeed.I will just have to continue with my therapy sessions and continue taking my medication as directed.I am just hoping that my recovery starts improving soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours to masturbate an erection away when I was awakened by one.It was also another throbbing one as well.I really had to fight temptation to masturbate this erection away.I really tossed and turned repeatedly until the erection died down.Though I escaped this one,I know that the temptation to act out in other ways,other than seeking a male partner out to have sexual activity with,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I just have to hang in there and keep fighting the urges when they come.I don't want to give in because masturbation will only reinforce the Homosexual identity,which is the identity that I am trying to overcome and disown.I don't want to be a Homosexual anymore and I don't want to act out in any way,shape or form.I am trying to put some advice to heart that a follower gave me,but I am still open to any other ideas or suggestions.Anything is always appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow morning,I am hoping to attend the morning's church service and it's accompanying Holy Bible study class before the service.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ