Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though still a little rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with he remainder of the day as I had a few things on my agenda.
I first went to my weekly spirituality group.I was looking forward to this with a lot positive anticipation and enthusiasm as I usually do.I headed over there and went right into it.
The group was wonderful.After the meeting,I had lunch at a local kitchen and after eating lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that were needed for dinner.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
In my recovery,I am learning day in and day out that it is never easy.The struggle with bipolar depression is never an easy one.Anyone that has this mental disorder has to put up with up and down periods emotionally and it is always unpredictable.One day a person can be up and the next day,the person can be down.Like a lot of those who have this,I have to put up with this emotional roller coaster ride.What makes it even harder is that I have schizophrenic tendencies alongside bipolar depression.I also have to try and stay in the right frame of mind and try to keep a firm grasp on reality,though it is also never easy.I am still going to continue my therapy sessions and I am also going to take my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts improving in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.It was also another throbbing one as well.I had to really fight this temptation as I didn't want to give into it like I did twice over the last two days.I had to really hold my own as it was a really overwhelming urge to simply grab my genitals and masturbate until climax.But again,I fought it until the erection died down.Though I escaped this episode,I have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out in other ways,other than seeking a male partner out to have sex with,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I just have to keep on fighting the urges and start finding out what leads me to masturbate and see if I can stop it before it grows.I hope that I can contain this habit for good.I did get some advice from a follower and I am going to give it a try.I am still open to other ideas or suggestions.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ