Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had only a few things planned.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something else that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD in the DVD player for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues marching forward and that is good.I have been feeling a little bit better as a result of having that conversation with the Christian counselor on Monday night.I have been really talking to God through his son Jesus Christ and everything has been pretty much okay.I have been feeling better and I am hoping that these good feelings last a while longer.I guess that I have just have to keep leaning on God through his son Jesus Christ a lot more and the good feelings will continue.But still,I will continue my therapy sessions and I will continue to take my medication as directed.As stated,I am hoping that these good feelings last a long time and I will try to stay in contact with God through his son Jesus Christ.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was once again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was again awakened by an erection that was also another throbbing one at that.This was a very overwhelming urge and I always get the urge to masturbate whenever I get an erection as that is when the urge is strongest.I simply got up and walked to the bathroom as I had to use it anyway and on the way there,the erection softened and after I used the bathroom,I simply went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the urge to masturbate can come in any way,shape or form.Escaping like this is easy,but throughout the day,the urge can creep up on me and then,I am faced with the dilemma of either giving into the temptation or asking God through his son Jesus Christ to help strengthen me and get me through the temptation.I see that no mere human being can tough it out like they try to do as I have learned the hard way that toughing it out relying on my own strength never really works at all.I will simply have to stay in touch with God and his son Jesus Christ whenever I have the urges.I now realize that they are the only ones that can help get me through any difficult trials with temptation.I may also have to talk with the Christian counselor again whenever possible.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the Holy Bible study class that is held before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ