Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.I had only a few things planned and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to pay my car insurance and after that was paid,I headed over to the post office to purchase a money order and sent it out to a place that was awaiting a payment on merchandise that they are holding for me.After that was done,I had a small lunch and after eating that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues onward and I am feeling pretty good.I am still leaning on God and his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the stress and helping me to handle the symptoms of BPD.It isn't easy dealing and struggling with the symptoms of this,but with God and Jesus Christ,it is only a little easier,but still difficult.I am simply not feeling the ups and downs of this as much as I used to feel.I am also still putting up and struggling with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have as well and though it does make the BPD struggle more difficult,I simply continue leaning on God through his son Jesus Christ and it makes the recovery process only a fraction easier than without them.I will still continue my therapy sessions.I will also still continue to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that this process will stay the way that it has been for quite a while.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.I had to really fight this overwhelming temptation.I simply started to sit up and when I did,the erection softened and I had to use the bathroom anyway.After finishing in the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I do have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I simply have to keep relying on God through Jesus Christ to get me through any temptations that may occur.I have to keep reminding myself that with their help,I no longer have anything to worry about as they will both strengthen me and get me through the temptation as I throw everything on God and ask in his son Christ Jesus' name to give me the strength and to get me through all sorts of temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.I know that whenever I resist the temptation to sin,the temptation will get stronger and even when that happens,it does my heart good knowing that God is there and he,with his son Jesus Christ in tow,will always get me through any temptation or any urge to sin.Thanks God and Jesus.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I chose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ