Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first went to my usual spirituality group and as usual,I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after I finished lunch,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and myself.After that was done,I dropped the money off at home and headed back out to get my hair cut.
The hair cut place wasn't very busy today,so I got in rather quickly.After my hair was cut,I paid it and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues and I am feeling much better than I have been.I still struggle with the symptoms of BPD and though it isn't an easy struggle,I am managing pretty well.I also still struggle with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have,but again,I am managing pretty well.Since I started to turn to God and his son Jesus Christ more,I am feeling better and I can simply share with them how I am feeling and what to do to solve any problems that I may have.Despite the good feelings from repeated prayers,I still attend my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I hope that these good feelings continue for a long time to come.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another morning erection.I simply started to get up and when I did,the erection died down.When it did,I simply went back to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.But now,I simply rely on God through Jesus Christ whenever temptation does indeed come around.I just turn to them in prayer and I feel much better as the temptation is relieved by a conversation with my creator in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I don't feel much of any sort of temptation to act out by seeking out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them or to watch porn.It is a wonderful feeling.I now rely on God through his son Jesus Christ now instead of my own strength and if I do fall,I simply ask to be forgiven and the slate is wiped clean.Thanks God and Christ Jesus.
As for tomorrow,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ