Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for myself and for my mom.After that was done,I headed for home to register all the money that I had before leaving the house again to do some much needed business that I had to tend to.I first headed over to the post office to mail out an important thing that needed to be mailed.After that was done,I headed over to the local Sears to pay on a bill that had to be paid.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues onward and though it isn't an easy road that I am on,I am still hanging in there and remaining hopeful.I do struggle with BPD and it's symptoms and though it isn't easy to deal with this type of thing,I know that I can always lean on God whenever the struggle seems to be unbearable.Since starting again to rely on God more,I haven't really felt the ups and downs typical of somebody who struggles with BPD.I simply turn to him in prayer whenever it seems unbearable.I also have to struggle with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that does make the BPD struggle more difficult,but again,whenever it seems that it may go beyond control,I simply turn to God and put it in his hands.I ask for God to intervene in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel much better.Yes,I do.In the meantime,I am still going to continue my therapy sessions and I am going to continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I will continue feeling better by simply relying on God through Jesus Christ for strength,guidance and also,a way out whenever it seems to be unbearable.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I got yet another double whammy when I was awakened at two separate intervals in the wee early morning by erections.I was tempted to engage in masturbation as a result of these erections.I had to really fight these urges and they were really overwhelming urges as well.Fortunately,on both occasions,I had to use the bathroom and the erections both died down while on the way there.I simply went back to sleep afterwards,but after the second occurrence,I had a really terrible headache and I took something to get rid of it before going back to sleep.Though I did escape these two episodes,I have to still keep in mind that the temptation to act out,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.This time,as I stated above,I now rely on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever I am faced with the urge to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.I simply throw it all on God and ask him in Jesus Christ's name to get me through the temptation and to strengthen me to fight and resist the temptation.It isn't easy struggling with SSA,but I now have two allies in Heaven and they are God and his son Jesus Christ.With them for allies,I can now fight all urges and be strengthened when they come.The struggle doesn't seem as unbearable anymore once I have them to rely on whenever any sort of temptations come.
Tomorrow,since it is the 4th of July,I will be hanging out with a few friends at one of my friends houses and I am hoping that it will go great.I will call to check up on my mom from time to time during the day to see how she is.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ