Happy Thanksgiving to everyone out there.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to move onward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only one thing planned for the day.
The only thing that I had on my agenda was dinner at my sister's house.It was originally going to be at my former brother in-law's place,but things changed as of yesterday afternoon.I headed over to my sister's house when the time came to go there and was there for much of the afternoon.
The dinner and the family time were both wonderful.After some wonderful family time,I headed straight home as there was nowhere else to go as a result of the holiday as everyplace around town was closed.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.Overall,a very good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still on my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next or from one minute/moment to the next.It is a never ending struggle and at times,I wished that I didn't have to go through this.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier.I still attend my therapy sessions.I still take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.With them,I am not alone in my struggle with BPD/Schizophrenia and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggle,I again was tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when throbbing erections at two separate intervals in the wee early morning hours woke me up out of a deep sleep.The first one wasn't too bad as the erection softened as I turned to the opposite side.With the second one,it was much more stronger than the first one and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and used it and as I walked to the bathroom,the erection softened and after I was finished,my genitals were back to full softness and I simply went back to sleep after I was finished.Though I escaped this double whammy,I was tempted throughout the rest of the evening as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have kept coming at me left and right.I was in a battle with them for the rest of the evening,but I chose to throw all of the temptations on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I chose to let them both strengthen me to fight and resist all temptations that came at me.I threw them all on both God and Christ and the temptations were reduced to nil.For much of the day when I was at my sister's,I wasn't tempted at all as I was around others,but when I was alone at home for the rest of the day,the temptations really came at me and they were strong.But again,I simply chose to throw all temptations on God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and I felt better each time as the temptations were reduced to nil.I am again asking for those who follow and read my blog posts to continue praying for me as I am still trying to get through this very difficult emotional period and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.It is just that people do visit and view my blog,but don't leave any comments in the comments section.Please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as your prayers and your encouraging comments keep me going in this fight against the unnatural desires associated with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ