Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after having a light lunch,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to a local supermarket to turn in a bag load of cans and bottles to get some much needed money.After that was done,I went to the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of herbal cold medicines and after paying for those,I headed over to see a friend and see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions very by the day,or at times,by the minute or moment.I simply never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPS struggle even more difficult.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride,I also have to put up with sounds and noises,such as voices or footsteps and seeing nobody else around walking,alongside the ups and downs of BPD.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about the struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel a tad better as they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply sat up for a while and continued sitting up until the erection softened and when it did fully soften,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.After I did that,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into that particular temptation as I really felt bad for giving into it.Throughout the day,I was again tempted to act out on the unnatural desires that I have and the temptations were very overwhelming.I didn't want to sin,so I kept up in prayer to God all day to help get me through the temptations.I simply kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations and after that,I felt much better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I kept it up all through the day and each time,I felt better.I am also still continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog regularly and also,some encouraging words in the comments section of my blog.Please pray for me and leave something encouraging in my blog's comments section.Your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and more determined to continue to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do as their powers combined are more powerful than anything known to man.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ