Tonight,my rocky road recovery continues moving on.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I finally managed to get to that Salvation Army thrift store in another area of the county where I live.I simply went in to look around and I did buy a few things.After that,I went to a nearby McDonalds to buy something to drink.After getting that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to my sister's house to pick something up.Last but not least,I went to the drug store to pick up a couple of prescriptions.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.Though I haven't brought it up lately,throughout the last few days,including today,I managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving on,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.My moods and/or emotions can be up one day/one minute/moment or down the next day/one minute/moment.I never how my emotional make-up will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am also having to put with sounds and things that only I can hear and nobody else does.I am still continuing to attend my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle tries to weigh me down.I simply talk about my BPD struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better as they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of turning the struggle over to him and his son and letting them take the lead and helping me through this struggle when it might be getting too difficult.It is wonderful that I can rely on them whenever that happens.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.This urge to grab my genitals and masturbate was really overwhelming.I tossed and I turned,but the erection only got even harder.I sat up for a while and I didn't lay back down until the erection had softened and I did lay back down when my genitals were fully soft.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.When that happened,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him.I kept busy throughout the day as I went about.I tried to keep my mind off anything sinful and lustful as I continued onward through the day.Whenever any temptation came around,I prayed to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to ask for strength to fight and resist the temptations when they came around.I kept it up and I even tried to keep my mind of positive spiritual things rather than on negative sinful things.The fight against the unnatural desires of SSA is always a very difficult one,but it can be won and overcome.I just have to keep praying and asking God in the name of his son Christ Jesus to give me strength to continue fighting and resisting all temptations that come around.I have to keep doing that all the day through and constantly whenever any temptations try to envelope me.I am also again asking for prayers by all who follow and read my blog posts and also,I still ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.Please pray for me and leave a very positive and encouraging word or two.I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and Christ for everything that they do as well.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the Holy Bible study class ninety minutes before the worship service.Aside from that,I have made no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ