Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to see my therapist at the local hospital.This was my first meeting with the new therapist as they have been changing therapists from time to time over at the hospital.
The session went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still faced with the daily struggle of having BPD.My emotions and/or moods change by the day,or at times,by the minute.I can up and feeling good one day or minute or down and not so good the next day or minute.I never know how my moods or emotions will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw the struggle on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better as they both help in sustaining me.I never have to worry about this struggle getting too overwhelming as both God and his son Jesus Christ are there to help me get through any difficult stuff related to having both BPD?Schizophrenia comes around.I simply talk about the struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and when it is in their hands,I feel a little bit better and it shows that I am not in this struggle alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I sat up for a while and since I felt that I had to use the bathroom,I got up to use it and as I walked to the bathroom,the erection softened and after using it,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day and I had to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I simply threw every temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I kept talking about the temptation to God and kept asking for strength to fight and resist the temptations and every time I finished praying,I felt better.I am also still requesting prayers from everyone who follows and reads my blog regularly and also for some encouraging comments by all of you in the comments section as well.Your prayers and encouraging words help keep me fighting this battle with SSA and make me more determined to overcome it.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouraging words.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do as well.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my case worker to discuss some things.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ