Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and after that was finished,I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I had to go to the local hospital to see the nurse practitioner there to get a follow-up on my blood work that was done yesterday and the tests came back good.There is really nothing wrong with me and everything is in good working order.I did tell her about some urinary problems that I have been having lately and she asked for even more depth in my blood work tests and she said that she should have the results in a few days.Since my blood work came back good,I am thinking that I may have a problem with my prostate gland or maybe it is simply an overactive bladder.After getting my prescriptions,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby gas station to get some gas and after that,I stopped at the drug store to drop off my prescriptions and I asked for them to get a prescription filled for Vitamin D immediately as though the nurse practitioner said that my blood work tests came back good,I still have a deficiency of Vitamin D in my system.They told me that this should be ready by tomorrow.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and finished my personal PC work.Before that,I made an appointment with my general medical doctor and I will be seeing them on the 1st of April.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day and I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone when it comes to this particular struggle and that is great as with them leading the way,I do feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep,though it didn't last long.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and the erection,though it was slow going,died down and when it was fully erect,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to engage in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping alongside the sexual images that were clouding my mind.I prayed to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of this and I felt better after praying to ask God for that.I also felt stronger and I knew that he was there and he heard me.I kept up in prayer all day and I felt better after doing so.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts as I really could use them now.I am also asking for an encouraging word or two from all of you.I get many visitors and curiosity seekers,but rarely do they leave a comment or two.Please leave me an encouraging word or two as your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome SSA and to continue in my journey to heal from the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ