Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I proceeded with the rest of my day as I had only one thing on my agenda for today.
After everything that I had to do was done at home,I headed out to a local supermarket and I turned in some cans and bottles that had accumulated in my trunk and after doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the money at the Where's George site and after that was done,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day and I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I have a very unpredictable mood and/or emotional pattern.My moods and/or emotions can be up and good one day/minute/moment or down the next day/minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning when I manipulated my genitals with sexual images of men clouding my mind and when I reached orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way and ejaculated.I felt really crushed as a result of this particular fall and after washing my hands,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for the fall.I did feel better after that as I truly believed that God had forgiven me for that.I was still facing temptation throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and I kept up in prayer all day and when I did,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me.I did feel much stronger after praying and I did feel that God heard me.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts that I post here almost every day.I am also again asking for encouraging words by all of you as well.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this struggle and make me even more determined to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouraging words.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have only a couple of things planned.I have my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and church in the evening.As for in between those two things,I haven't got nothing else planned,but I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ