Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also had the opportunity today to do a reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation and I received many positive accolades from my reading as many of my fellow worshipers said that I did a wonderful job reading.After some wonderful fellowship with the members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed out of my suit and into my casual clothes and headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart to do some grocery shopping.I also managed to have a light lunch at Burger King before that.After I was done at Wal-Mart,I headed over to a local hardware store to pick up a small tube of Krazy Glue.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a pack of cookies and after paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the cookies away and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I always look forward to church each and every Sunday.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride,which can get pretty tiresome and monotonous at times.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I can be up and feeling good one day/one minute/moment and down the next day/minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful and it shows that God and his son Jesus Christ are there helping me get through all of this rigamarole of having BPD/Schizophrenia combination.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was a really overwhelming temptation as well.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I sat up and started to get out of bed and the erection started to soften.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft and when they were,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have by masturbation,fantasies and/or lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I fought these urges by throwing each temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I asked for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I felt much better and stronger as a result of me doing that.I am again asking that all of you continue to pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional struggle and also,I also ask that none of you who visit be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.My blog does get visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave an encouraging comment or two.Please don't be shy.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please also continue to keep up in prayer for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ