Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed quickly and I headed over to my monthly Men's Network meeting,which was the first that I had attended since December.
The meeting went well and I did get quite a bit out of it.After the meeting was over,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to a nearby post office to mail out an important payment.After that was done,I did a little bit of shopping at a nearby Salvation Army thrift store and a nearby Dollar Tree store.After doing all of that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Sears store to make yet another important payment.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and had a light lunch and after lunch.I did my personal PC work.I relaxed and enjoyed a little TV after that was done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.At times,this constant emotional roller coaster ride can seem unbearable as it can be pretty monotonous.At times,I am up and feeling good,while at other times,down and not so good.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone here when it comes to this particular struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating to sexual images of men.I started to manipulate my genitals while these images clouded my mind and when I was about to ejaculate,I masturbated the rest of the way until I ejaculated.After washing my hands,I immediately asked God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I felt really terrible for sinning against God in this way and I felt better after praying for the forgiveness as I truly believe that I am forgiven for my sins.I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and I prayed hard for strength to fight and resist all of the temptations that came at me.I kept it up as I didn't want to sin again like I did early this morning.I kept up asking God for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I didn't cease praying.I always felt better after praying and the feeling that I got was an excellent feeling.I am also again asking that everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts to keep up praying for me.I also ask that all of you leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as well.It is just that my blog gets quite a few visitors,but the visitors rarely leave any encouraging words for me in the comments section.I would appreciate a kind word or two in the comments section that is also very encouraging.It is that both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,don't be shy by leaving an encouraging word or two for me as well.Thanks in advance to all of my followers for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ