Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward and onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda.
The first thing that I did was to attend my usual Thursday spirituality group,which went as well as expected.After that was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after that,I headed over to my case worker's office to talk with her about some things and after that was over,I headed over to a friend's place to see how they were doing and after spending some time with him,I headed over to a local garage to get the oil changed,which was long overdue.After that,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that was done,I headed for home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and finished my personal PC work.After that,I took it easy for a short spell.
I only made one more trip out before calling it a day.I went over to a local Subway to pick up a submarine sandwich.I headed straight home and that was my dinner for tonight.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward and onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be as this emotional roller coaster ride is pretty unpredictable.I can be up and feeling good one day/minute/moment and down the next day/minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my energy when this happened as it was very overwhelming.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed,which made the erection soften and I didn't lay back down until the erection was fully soft and the temptation to indulge in masturbation had faded.I went back to sleep and slept until it was time for me to really get up.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in masturbation and also,to indulge in lustful fantasies to sexual images of men alongside the temptation to masturbate.I prayed all day to God in the name of of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resit all of the temptations that came at me and after each prayer,I felt better as I knew that God and Christ both heard me.I kept it up all day without ceasing and felt good after doing so.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follow my blog and that they keep it up for me.I could really use prayers right now as temptation is really trying to get the better of me.Please continue praying for me and also,don't be shy and please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.It is just that my blog gets plenty of visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave a comment of two.Please don't be shy.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
I have only one thing planned for tomorrow.I have to drop something off at my therapist's office for her and the nurse practitioner to sign so I can have an orientation meeting to get in with another organization to help me find work.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ