Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I got a call for a job interview that will be done tomorrow.I am looking forward to this and I am hoping that it will lead to something.I also let the job placement people know about this as well and I am hoping that they can help me out in anything during the interview.
I had a few things on my agenda today.I first went to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital and I headed for there.
The session with her went great and after getting my prescription,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed over to the bank to withdraw a few dollars.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy while catching up on some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure and get through all the negative rigamarole of this double whammy of a psychiatric disorder that I struggle with and they both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a very calm and level plain.I feel a little bit better knowing that they are there leading the way.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and that is what made the erection start to soften and when it was fully soft,I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex fantasies and lusting.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I kept up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these terrible temptations came at me from all sides.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me strength to help me fight and resist all of these terrible temptations.I asked for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after I was finished praying,I felt stronger and more at ease as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and also,he gave me what I asked for.Though I have been keeping up in prayer to my Heavenly Father in regards to this particular struggle,I am again asking that all of you who continue to follow my blog and read the posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a difficult emotional period in my life and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular struggle and strength my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of my followers for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have an interview for a job and I am hoping that everything goes well.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ