Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and as the morning went on,I got dressed up to prepare for my job interview today.I was really thrilled that I finally got a call to be interviewed for a job.The job placement counselor picked me up and we headed for the office where the interview was to be conducted.
The interview went great and the job placement counselor said that I gave very excellent answers.After it was over,he dropped me off at home and I got out of my fancy clothes and into my normal casual clothes as I had quite a few things to do today.
After dropping off some newspapers at a few houses,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk and after paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and I also helped my next door neighbor out with something and when I was finished,I went back into my house to relax.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the negatives of this particular struggle and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and didn't lay back down until my genitals softened and when they were,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I must say that for the first time in quite a while,I wasn't tempted as much as I have been in the last few days.I guess the enthusiasm of my job interview going good was what took my mind off of my SSA struggles and again,not much temptation today.Still,I am asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this struggle and strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ