Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and spent the rest of the day trying to get through this intense heat and humidity that I and the rest of the hometown are enduring.It is hazy,hot and humid here in my neck of the woods.The temps are in the lower 90's,but with the humidity,it feels like that it was almost 100 degrees.I got dressed to get out and run an errand that I had to run,despite the fact that it was hazy,hot and humid.
I had only one thing on my agenda today.I had to go to a local store to pick up a few things and after paying for them,I headed over to a local McDonald's to get myself a vanilla cone and after having that in the coolness of the restaurant,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend was and how he was handling the heat and humidity and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and sat all day around the house in my underpants while fans were running continuously.I haven't endured this much haziness,heat and humidity in years.I simply sat around almost naked trying to stay cool,though I was sweating some during the day and as a result of that,I kept drinking water like if it was going out of style.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or difficult for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through the negatives of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in sustaining me and on a calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and walked back and forth around the room until the erection died down and when it did,I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted a little bit during the day,but for most of the day,I simply concentrated on surviving this intense heat and humidity that I have been enduring and also,been sweating pretty much while concentrating on surviving.While the temptations haven't been coming up on me as much,I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a rough time.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this struggle and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural desires that I have that are connected to this terrible SSA.Thanks again in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have my usual spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.Aside from those things,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ