Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local bargain closeout store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and did my personal PC work.When that was finished,I decided to take a drive around the city to see how everything was doing and when I couldn't find anything going on,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday morning always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk to my Heavenly Father in prayer whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through all the negative emotions and emotionally stressful period that this type of psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but they also help keep me on a very calm and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I got up out of bed and I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it.My genitals were fully softened after I was finished in the bathroom and I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men tried to take over my mind.I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father and I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations because they were very overwhelming.I asked my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges and I prayed real hard and after I was finished,I felt much better and also,much stronger as I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts to please continue to pray for me as I am going through this very difficult emotionally trying time.Please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I also need some words of encouragement as well alongside your prayers.Your prayers and your words of encouragement both help keep me going in this particular struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of my followers for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing the nurse practitioner,I have not made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ