Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
I first went to my usual spirituality group and that went as well as expected.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after eating that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money so I can pay my electric bill tomorrow.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the money that I withdrew at Where's George and after that,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also managed to finish my personal PC work.I also had to put up with the hazy,hot and humid temps again for the third straight day.I am hoping that relief comes soon as I feel that we truly need it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through and keep me calm and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a very calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both mu Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night when I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that were clouding my mind and I wound up ejaculating as well.I was really miserable when that happened and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for sinning against him by giving into the immoral impulses that I had last night.I did sleep soundly for the rest of the night and nothing happened while I was sleeping,except waking up to another erection when the wee early morning hours were still upon the time.I also was still tempted through the day to continue indulging and I kept up in prayer as these temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I kept up in prayer and I kept asking my Heavenly Father for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations and I did feel stronger after doing that.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me and also,I would appreciate some encouraging words of support in the comments section.I need both prayers and encouragement to help keep me going and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of paying the electric bill,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ