Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I had to take my niece to work as her car was in the shop.On the way there,I stopped to get some gas at a local gas station and after that was done,we headed for her work place.After dropping her off,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work.I also had a light lunch after doing that.After lunch,I eagerly awaited for the time to leave the house to pick her up and when it came,I hurried out to where she worked and picked her up.After dropping her off at home,I also headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle as a burden on my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They help in both sustaining me and keeping on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened out of a deep sleep by another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that made my genitals soften.After a few minutes,when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but today,it wasn't as bad as it has been on past days.Today,I received an e-mail from someone that I was trying to help on Facebook and he actually did what I advised him to do.He actually prayed to our Heavenly Father and asked for strength to fight and resist the temptations that he was experiencing at that time.He asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ for that strength and that made me feel joyful.I was really overwhelmed that my prayers were answered and that he did the right thing,by going to our Heavenly Father for strength to fight and resist the temptations.Again,that made me feel joy and exuberance.My faith in my Heavenly Father has also strengthened as a result of that.For the rest of the day,I felt nothing but joy and happiness that my helping someone in a time of need had actually really helped them.Thank you Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything.Fellow followers,I am still going to ask for prayers by all of you.I am also asking that y'all leave an encouraging word or two.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey of healing from these unwanted and unnatural desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks again to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ