Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
The very first thing that I did today was that I returned some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the back seat of my car.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my prescription.After paying the co-pay for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through the negatives and that both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I turned to my right side,but the erections wouldn't soften.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and I got up to use it.While on the way there,though it was slow going,the erection started to die down and when I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went back t bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed busy throughout the day just doing the things that needed to be done.I kept my mind on the things that I was doing and I didn't let nothing sexual take over my mind.I simply stayed out in the community and that is what helped me take my mind off of the negative sexual images of men.While I escaped today without anything happening,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at this moment.I am also asking that all of you followers of my blog to please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ