Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today.
Before I went out to do anything,I got two phone calls in regards to applications that I filed for work in my hometown.I have two interviews for jobs tomorrow.One will be a phone interview that will take place at home with a substitute job placement counselor sitting in on the interview.The next will be at a local nursing home looking for someone to work as a kitchen assistant.I am hoping and praying that at least one of these will lead to a job.I am getting sick of being unemployed and not doing anything except sitting on my butt and getting bored.Again,I am hoping and praying that this leads to a job.
After the phone calls,I headed out to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed out to a nearby Goodwill thrift store that just opened up in the area where my friend was living.I bought some nice things there and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Salvation Army thrift store and I bought a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a bit.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They help in both sustaining me and keeping me on a calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular psychiatric struggle that I have and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I proceeded to get out of bed.My genitals were starting to soften and when they were fully soft,I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasizing of other men.This time,I kept myself busy by being out in the community today.Since I was out in the community,sexual thoughts didn't take over my mind as I was going over what I was doing at the thrift stores and visiting my friend.It was great.I had a wonderful day out in the community.I also had my mind on the job interviews that I have tomorrow afternoon.Again,I am hoping that these lead to a job.I am hoping and praying that it does.I am again asking for prayers by my fellow followers here as I desperately need them.Please keep me in your prayers that these interviews lead to a job and also,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a rough emotional time here.I also ask for some encouraging words in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words really help.They both help keep me going.They also keep strengthening my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also keep strengthening my determination to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with daily.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of the two job interviews,I have really no plans.But I hope that the interviews lead me to a job and that what I choose to do after them give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ