Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and after a while of relaxation for mot of the morning,I got dressed up in dress clothes to prepare for my two interviews today for jobs in my area.
The first interview,which was supposed to be a phone interview,never called.The substitute job placement counselor and I waited for almost half an hour for the phone to ring.I had to call the place to see what was what and since the substitute job placement counselor had another client to meet at a certain time,she left.Not too long after she left,another substitute job placement counselor came and took me to the other interview,which did happen.It was at a local nursing home and the interview went great and they informed me that they would let me know in two weeks.After it was over,I was dropped off at home and I changed clothes real quickly as I had a few things to do,such as a much needed errand that needed to be run.After that was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also went out again for a while.When I got home,I got ready to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I throw it in him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative effects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and didn't lay back down until my genitals,though it was pretty slow going,softened.When my genitals were fully softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting with sexual images of other men.But today,I kept my mind focused on the things that were going on with me.I kept my mind focused on my job interview and the errand that I had to run when I got home from my interview.This time,I didn't have to worry about falling into sin via temptation and that was great.I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected to this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ