Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few small errands to run.I first stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some personal hygiene products for myself.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart and picked up a gallon of milk.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk away in the fridge and put all my new personal hygiene products away.After that,I spent some time cleaning out my car of all the empty bottles and cans that accumulated in the back seat of my car.It took me a little over an hour,but I got it done.After that,I headed back in the house to wash my hands of all the work that I had done in cleaning up the back seat of my car and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work and laid down to read for a while.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult to handle.I throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to help me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I had to get up and use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom,which made the erection soften.When I was finished,my genitals were back to full softness and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men clouded my mind.But today,since I again kept busy,it wasn't that bad.I stayed busy by being out in the community and simply doing what I had to do.I just stayed out in the community and simply did the necessary things that needed to get done.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog to please continue in prayer for me as I still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that y'all leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in all of the bottles and cans at a local supermarket,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ