Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a few errands that I needed to run.I was out of the house for much of the day.The most important thing that I got done today was that I had my car inspected and with the exception of replacing a bulb where my license plate area was,my car passed with flying colors.After that was done,I did the aforementioned errands before heading straight home.
When I got home,I put some stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and relax.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky raod to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden and I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but also keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am going to be very blunt and open here.I again gave into temptation by masturbating.Yes,there was lusting and fantasizing of other men involved with this fall as well.After this,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me and I also begged for his mercy.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for these things.I did feel better and I moved on with the rest of the day.Fellow SSA strugglers who continually follow my blog and read my posts,I am again asking for prayerful and positive verbal support.I need both very desperately.I am sick of falling so much and I really want to heal from this terrible SSA.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I really felt miserable after this current fall.Please pray for me and please leave me some positive words of encouragement.They both help keep me going.I need them to also keep my determination and motivation strong.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave some encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ