Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After the service was over,we had a special potluck lunch in the church's fellowship hall.The food and the fellowship were wonderful.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched another DVD and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday morning makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained and much calmer.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed.I headed out to the bathroom as I had to use it.This made the erection start to soften,though it was a little slow in doing so.My genitals were fully soft after I was finished in the bathroom.I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Today,it wasn't too big of a problem.After the wonderful day in church,my mind wasn't clouded too much by urges to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I simply kept my mind on other things.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I need your prayers every day as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need prayers and positive verbal encouragement.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your words of positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ