Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty so-so day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I received some shocking news.A friend of mine who graduated with me died suddenly yesterday.He was still a young man and his death came as a surprise to me.It did affect my day somewhat.I still went on with what I had planned for the day.
I first stopped at a local supermarket to pay a bill.After that,I headed for my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to take part in a Holy Bible study that was at somebody else's place of residence,which was also wonderful.After that,I headed straight home to get ready to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty so-so day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing with the symptoms of BPD and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD.Today,the difficulty of dealing with this psychiatric double whammy got even more complicated with the death of my friend and fellow graduating classmate.My head and brain were really reeling.This coming Saturday is the funeral and I am thinking of going to it to pay my last respects to him.I am going to need some prayers to help get me through this.I just went through the one year anniversary of my mother's passing and now this happens.This death was a huge shock to me and I am hoping to get over the shock soon.I will still miss him and I will always feel and sense his absence.It will be a very difficult road ahead,but I know that I will get adjusted to the loss of a friend.Fellow blog followers,please pray for me and leave some encouraging words.I would really appreciate both of these things.Thanks very much in advance to all of you for all of your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I actually gave into temptation late last night by masturbating.Yes,I did.There was also some lusting and fantasizing involved with this fall.Not only that,the effects of being alone living by myself also played a role in this current fall.Right after the fall,I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning.I asked for this in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really felt terrible after this sin and I prayed hard and even asked for mercy because I really felt miserable for falling into sin by giving into this temptation.Fellow blog followers,please pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please pray for me and also,please leave me a few encouraging words in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and your positive verbal support as well very desperately.The support that you give,both prayerful and positive verbal,helps keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.They also motivate me to continues in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ