Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much planned for today.I simply decided to turn in a whole bunch of bottles and cans that I put into garbage bags at a local supermarket.After that was done,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart across the street to buy something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to a little bit more personal PC work and I simply relaxed for the rest of the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.If having the ups and downs of BPD weren't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I ask for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that made the erection start to soften.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft.When they were,I laid back down and dozed off within a few seconds.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed busy by being out in the community and that helped.By staying out and staying busy,it wasn't that bad today.It kept my mind off of anything sexual with men and that was great.While I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking for prayers from all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts.I still need prayers from all of you.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination and my motivation to continue in overcoming and healing from this terrible SSA.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ