Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I actually woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
The real big thing for me today was that I had an appointment with my therapist today.I headed over to the local hospital for the session.
The session was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple more things.After paying for these things,I dropped a prescription off at the local drug store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries that I bought away and I also got a phone call about a hopeful job interview opportunity.I returned the call by leaving a message on their voice-mail and after that,I also called the priest that I am currently having sessions with and left a message on his voice-mail so we can schedule our next session.After that,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a holiday themed DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I relaxed and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle with the psychiatric double whammy of BPD/Schizophrenia and my daily SSA struggles.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.I also never know how my struggles with SSA will be.Day after day,it gets more and more difficult.At times,I wish that I didn't have these struggles.This morning,while still in bed trying to get up,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals while sexual images of men clouded my mind and that motivated the temptation.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I did feel better after that.For the rest of the day,since I had a few things on my agenda,I was out and that took my mind off of these things.For the rest of the day,nothing entered my mind to inhibit any temptations.I stayed busy just seeing my therapist and getting some more grocery shopping done.I am still asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things desperately.They both help keep me going and also,they show that I am not alone in this particular struggle.When nobody leaves me anything encouraging,I feel that I am alone.Please don't make me feel alone by leaving me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and my evening study group,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ