Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and as a result of the Winter Weather Advisory in effect for the area that I am living in,I didn't leave the house at all,except to simply go out and shovel the walk for the mail people and I also cleaned my car off of the snow that was on it.I also turned the engine on to warm it up for a few minutes as I don't want it to stall on me tomorrow morning when I leave the house to go to church.After I was done,I went back in the house and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.I also watched another one after that was over.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a few holiday themed DVD's.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I fell again by giving into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind while doing so.I stopped myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really need to start buckling down and getting tough with myself.I can't keep falling constantly.I have to stop myself as I feel that I am falling back into habitual sin by falling so much.I need to start praying to my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these urges.I also still need prayers from my fellow blog followers.I also need positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and please continue praying for me.I need all the support that I can get.Please show me that I am not alone.I feel alone when nobody leaves me any encouraging comments.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and also,please continue praying for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ