Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and afterwards,I watched a few holiday themed DVD's while waiting for my caseworker to show up.After the meeting with my caseworker,I shoveled the sidewalk for the mail people and cleaned the snow off of my car.It was snowing pretty heavily today and I just hung out at home watching a DVD or two.After the shoveling and the cleaning,I watched a couple more DVD's.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a few more holiday themed DVD's and relaxed.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.The SSA struggle can be very emotionally draining at times and can take away some much needed emotional energy.Today,as a result of me being home due to the heavy snowfall,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.I stopped myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I admitted full and total responsibility for my falling into sin as well.I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my Heavenly Father wiped the slate clean.I still need to continue working on getting tough with myself.I am still a work in progress and the best thing is that my Heavenly Father will never give up on me,but I can't abuse that in any way,shape or form.I have to avoid falling into the trap of habitually sinning and asking my Heavenly Father to forgive me for that.I see that anyone can fall into that trap,but I really want to avoid falling into that particular trap.Fellow blog followers and readers,if anyone or all of you has any ideas and/or advice so I can avoid that,please share.I need prayers,advice and continuous positive verbal support.Please pray for me.Please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.Please leave me anything that I can use so I can avoid falling into that particular trap of habitually sinning and asking for forgiveness.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I am just going to stay home and watch a few more holiday themed DVD's while at home.I might also do some more cleaning up in my old upstairs room so I can start sleeping in it again.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ