Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,despite some setbacks with Yahoo mail,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed in a pair of jeans to go out and shovel the walk for the mail people to come later on when they deliver the mail.It took me several minutes,but I got it done.I also cleaned my car off of snow that fell overnight while I was sleeping.After that was all done,I went back into the house to relax and enjoy a few more holiday themed videos and DVD's.
Later on,I decided to have an early evening meal as I was going to go to the evening's Christmas Eve church service.I got dressed up in some neat dress clothes and headed for church for the service.
The Christmas Eve church service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into night clothes.I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.The SSA struggle is actually more difficult for me mainly due to the psychiatric double whammy that I have.I have to put up with hearing voices and sounds that nobody else hears,which only I can hear and it does get pretty draining both emotionally and energy wise.As a result of these things,I get overwhelmed by temptations to act out in other ways other than going out to seek out men to indulge in sinful sexual activity with.I get tempted to fantasize and lust when sexual images of men cloud my mind and I also get tempted to manipulate my genitals to these sexual images,which motivates the lusting of these sexual images of men.Today,I was tempted,but tried to keep myself busy with doing the things around the house that needed to be done.I shoveled the walk for the mail people and also,anticipated the Christmas Eve worship service tonight at church and that took my mind off of these immoral things.Still,I am a work in progress and I am still doing a psychological house cleaning of everything that causes me to stumble and fall in regards to my struggles with SSA.I need to keep telling these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and they don't own me.It's easier said than done,but I know that it can be done with the right motivation.I still need to work on getting tough with myself and also,I am still working on making frequent prayer a part of my life.Fellow blog followers,I am asking that you continue offering prayerful support for me and also,a nice encouraging comment in the comments section would be appreciated.I need both of these things day in and day out.Please continue doing these things for me and also,I will pray for all of you at the same time.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I will be going to church for the Christmas Day morning worship service.I will also be celebrating the holiday with my family and visiting with a friend who lives locally.When that's all over,I will simply relax and watch a movie or two until it is time for me to retire for the evening.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ